translated by Julia Mraczny
 

I don’t believe them, but I choose the lesser of two evils—I can be robbed slowly but steadily or once, big time. I’d choose to live in permanent stress as my rights are taken away month after month, or would I prefer that it happens overnight—then I could plan my emigration?

No one likes to suffer, but you have to choose whether you want the pain to build up, giving you time to get used to it, or whether you want it to be sudden so you can get it over with quickly.